The White Room was peaceful.
That evening was delightfully lonely.
That bubble bath with cans of beer at her feet, was weaving
new threads of liberty.
But Then she was interrupted!
Dizzy in her head, she stepped out to take the call.
Unaware of what was coming her way, she dressed.
She went out with her new colleagues to take a bite, and
never returned the same strength personified alpha woman as she was.
That trickle of disgust turned into deluge in no time, she
started looking at people around her with slight.
That city was doing her shameless act again, filling her with
all sort of emotions, reminding her of all the questions that were left
unanswered. She had made peace with it, didn’t she?
She tried to get hold of her senses; she tried to battle her
weak replica ready to overpower her.
She tried to extract the happiness out of material tools of
the world, she tried to walk, she tried…but in vain.
That city will spare no one, especially her!
She looked into the mirror, into her soul one last time,
then she sinned!
It was joyous, depressing, exciting, it was breaking bad!
It was hurtful, mean, confusing, it was pretty looking mess!
She was slow, cautious and she lied.
She thought she would close the loose ends, and it will be
over once and for all.
It dint stop, it took her by the force.
Her pride told her, its ok, and she can still put it to an
end.
The harm was still afar smiling at her, waiting to pound,
knock her down.
The destiny offered her the escape route, made her touch
base with her world again.
Her world had its arms open, it cradled her, purged her lies,
gave her all the warmth and sent her back in the time to re live & re do.
She thought, she will settle the score this time
With time, with pain, with city, with people who disregarded
her.
She changed her skin, switched her rationality off and
plunged into the mess.
Deep, Deep she went.
Built the castles, the memories, the brilliant bubble of
happiness.
She denied justifying; she refused to make sense, to answer.
She cut herself open, for it to see through her.
To see, how much she could do, how crazy and brutally honest
she was.
To see, the pile of rejection hiding at the corner, the pile,
which turned rock solid after all these years.
She was coming full circle, but it wasn’t easy.
She was alert & deep down she knew what she wanted, but
it wasn’t easy.
She was asked again, questioned, and pleaded to.
She saw the tears, she listened to the predicament, &
hesitatingly she accepted!
It can’t be, No, It wasn’t meant to be. No, No, No with all
my heart, She said to herself
She dint know how to say No, she thought it was easy.
Then she heard the cacophony!
You thought you will settle the score? You thought, you
could do it & it won’t come back at you and your world. Ah, grossly
mistaken, you Delhite.
She dint know what was happening, it was all lost.
All that she had earned in her life, she had lost her
dearest herself.
The one she was so proud of.
It was over, everything, her life, the world she stabbed.
She lay there hopeless & almost dead, her courage had
left her, her lights were all vanquished!
Everything was dusted, But her world.
She had stooped so low, she forgot to look up and figure who
had her back, why she was still breathing?
Her world took her & said, Its not going to be easy, but we will get
there. Do you want to restart?
She dint believe her ears, was this possible? Could she be
given another chance? Was this a trick?
Can my world ever understand what I did & why I did it?
Will it understand that it was important for me to close it?
Her world wasn't even paying attention to her boggling
doubts.
It just said, I know, I understand, I am here, we will get
through this together.
And so, she rekindled her courage, resolved to make it right, to do what it takes, to douse the flames, to end what was started years ago, to close the much dragged chapter of her Life .
She dint explain, why, when, how? She just said, No, and
that was it. The closure.
