A Decade with you

Although we met in year 90 for the first time but i was only 4 then and barely remember anything about it. A decade passed when I met you again,December’99,in Mumbai, i was coughing ceaselessly…all night through, and you were kind enough to stay up and put me to sleep. I didn’t know then that it was actually a rendezvous with an angel. That very evening laid the foundation of the most important relationship of my life.

Our lives crossed each other at a perfect time, we both were young..curious..and gregarious.It all seem a plan of GOD now. Our next meeting which pulled us further close was here in Dilli…we were like a house on fire…we talked and talked and talked...availing every second given to us. With you, I swear I have had the most comforting…reassuring…and gratifying conversation ever. I was in your awe completely, you were a suave..talented..gifted..humble person and I was extremely delighted to have found you. With that started our custom to write to each other and of course frequent visits to Mumbai.

Because of you I grew fonder of Mumbai…everytime I sojourned in Mumbai…I learned more..grew more as an individual…as a woman…the place started to become a part of my dreams..so strong and vivid a dream that sometimes when I am completely empty…null…zero…nada,it s the only thing that brings me back to life , funny but those dreams are the very essence of my existence..with them I have beautifully carved out the picture of my life…Now tell me can I ever thank you enough for this?

With time I started to know you more..only to thank GOD to have blessed me with a friend in a form of cousin…”YOU”…PRATITH M GULVE.You were so overpowering that I tended to overlook just about everyone and everything around us.Noone really mattered when I had you around,I remember a day before my 18th birthday when you drove me home on bike...in a typical early rain showers of Mumbai…when we talked all the way through. It was an important day…and I was hell nervous…for I was going to face my past again…and to top it all I couldn’t share with anyone…the feeling…which was sending jitters through my body, but your presence…your mere presence got me through it....smoothly.Ans the best part is i didn't have to utter a thing to you.

Next few years weren’t too easy…life wasn’t too fair...and we both had our share of roadblocks to clear...I started to lose my charm…started to remain lost…drifted to an undesirable iteration of events…subjected to fate and destiny and you got struck with you own plethora of problems … but we managed to be in touch even then. Naturally when I finally chose to hit the bottom so as to rise again..i chose Mumbai….i wanted to go as down as possible…and I did.. I plunged myself deep unaware that you had held me through an invisible string.No wonder..i rebounded...rebounded miraculously.

Life was beautiful again…I was living my dreams…was bubbling with joy…and was so so occupied…that I overlooked you too.You caught TB meanwhile…I was sure…you will take a hop and be alright…as slowly you too were coming in terms with life.You were so strong that you could even make sense out of suffering.I had all plans to come and spend pleasant evenings with you …chatting away..over a cup of coffee.…have tequila with you…click pics with you…go places with you…It was all set, only I never could actually come there and do it all…I thought it could wait…I procrastinated it…
Not even in my deadliest dreams had I ever thought that I was actually loosing you…I was like…Oh c’mon why would I lose you??? You aren’t going anywhere…baah!!! What an ignorant!!!


Location: Aane Gaav,Maharashtra.

And before I could realize..and be by your side…you gave up!!!! Just like that…End of it…End of you…I asked you to hold on…I was coming…I was coming… it was a matter of a week… but…
One day you were here…right here…and another day….
Kuch sochne samajhne ka mauka bhi nahi diya…U taught me everything…but why did u have to teach me handle this…handle death
Last time I saw you…I kissed you good bye…all flesh and blood and next time…..How so unfair Bhaiya!!!
I do not know how to live without talking to you….where do I send my letters to??? Where do I call??Its a terrible thing to know…that I can’t reach to you anymore…We were supposed to grow up together….weren’t we?? Why did u have to leave so soon???
It all sucks without you….You were…and you will always be my closest friend…my teacher…my savior.
Do you have any clue…how much I love you.And the regret that I did not come to see you…after you repeatedly asked me to, do you know how big a burden that is…for the rest of my life.
I thought I lost many things in life….but FUDGE!!!!!!!...loosing you…is the biggest loss of my life!!!
A decade just a decade…..was all GOD had planned...but…for me…it is a lifetime.You are not going anywhere…you are alive here in my heart…in my dreams…in my memories. I would have been truly blessed that i got a chance to know you and be a part of your life.
I will do all you would have wanted me to do…and entrusted me to take care of….i will shine and make you proud!!

Render myself to miss you my whole life…be back soon my bhaiya!!!!